Finally gonna try recovery (with my progress snake to motivate me)

I’m terrified of the idea, but I’ve had an eating disorder for 8 years and I can’t keep doing this shit. Spent the last few months trying to decide if I want to get better or worse, cause I can’t stay at this level. Finally decided a couple days ago that Ana can get fucked (obviously not that simple, but I’m riding on the spite as long as I can)

Inspired by a temperature snake I saw on here, I’m making a crocheted recovery snake to keep a record and to motivate me. 7 rows of 8sc per day, dual strand to show the category and accuracy of my intake. As I reduce the accuracy of my tracking he’ll get lighter, and as I start eating more types of food without tracking them he’ll get brighter. Gonna go for L1 of grains tomorrow cause he needs some yellow

The contrast of the colours is a little better irl lol, but I wanted to do it without buying any new yarn (only had to buy 1 in the end). I’m excited to watch him grow, and I’m hoping it lets me feel like a person again